Another Start

Weight 199 lbs.

Starting again.  The story of my life.  I'm so disgusted with myself for putting so much weight back on.  But being disgusted doesn't help me get to where I want to be.  So, I'm trying to be positive about this.

"I want to be healthy and I want to be thin."  I kept repeating that to myself yesterday while I was on the treadmill.  It's a good mantra.  Maybe it should be "I want to be at a healthy weight" instead, though.  Because, amazingly, with all the abuse I've put my poor body through in terms of eating and weight, I'm in very good health.  I have no right to be considering how I've eaten throughout my life and avoided exercise like it was the plague.

I keep trying to find a way to do this with as little pain as possible.  A month ago I started counting calories again and lost over ten pounds.  Today counting calories again is depressing so I'm going to try it by just making good food decisions and exercising.